Weight Watchers---in the beginning.

Weight Watchers.Day 1

Today I started something I never thought I would have to do:diet.  Well, not diet necessarily, but Weight Watchers.  Which is really a diet for people who don't want to think they are on a diet.  I have always been a perfect weight, a skinny minny, but something happen to my metabolism the last couple of years.  It stopped working.  So, here I am trying to get into jeans that are yet another size bigger than the ones I bought 2 months ago...AHHH!!!  I hate this...I have a muffin top.  Thats not good.  I have a pooch and I'm not talking about Fenway or Mocha.  I have to get rid of this.  This feeling of low-self esteem, this no energy me.  I miss feeling confident no matter what I had on and having enough energy to walk a flight of stairs.

So, I started today and my points total is 29. Of course, I have had 29 points today. It's 10:52 pm and all I can think about it food.  Crunchy food.  Chips.  Candy.  Cookies.  Tonight I had a snack of cauliflower, celery, broccli, and carrots.  Sure the plate looked colorful but I felt like a rabbit.  I have to admit though that today has not been that bad.  I started out great, had oatmeal, apples, and dried fruit for breakfast.  Not too bad for lunch...Subway.  I didn't get hungry before lunch, so that was great.  I started my new job today at Quest, so that had my mind most of the day.  However, I'm proud of myself for not going over my points.  The Girl Scout cookies are soooo calling my name.  Tiffany...Tiffany...you know you want one.  But, I am going to be strong,  I want to lose this weight, at least 20lbs.  I want to be able to wear the clothes that I have stuffed in a Rubbermaid tote in my closet.  So, I will go to bed and dream about eating.  It is so wrong to go to bed and I can't wait for breakfast.  I'm not even hungry.  Food just has a lasso around me like a bull!  Ahh...I gotta get over this.  I'm going to have to keep myself more busy at night.  I realize now, this is my weak point.  But I can do it!  I am strong and I will beat food!  Exercising, that's a whole different blog.

Signing off.